Hang in there Judy. I can't say it'll get better, or that you'll understand things more clearly, but it'll help in its own way if you try to stay active with yourself, and in your thread.
Try to find the other anchors in your life to help you; kids, friends, church, work, exercise.
It's a long, sad trail we're all on. Misery loves company though, and there's always a helpful soul here to lend you support.
