I was just handed the biggest bonus check of my life and I should feel GREAT about it, but it really is bittersweet because I don't want to share the information with W. This was always the best time of the year with vacation coming up and having the $ to really have a good time. Now she is not going on vacation with us. I was also planning to put a nice patio on the back of the house and now this will be spent on a D instead. Makes me sick to even think about it.
