She's perfected manipulating you. She knows your limits, and your fears, and is using them to control you.
You don't sound like you're convinced of your boundaries, of your needs and desires.
I would spend some time alone while thinking them through before talking to her about them.
You deserve to have a happy, healthy relationship. And trust me, coming from my screwed up life, this isn't one. Trust in your heart, not in what this abusive woman has been feeding you.
I guess. I just am having problems seperating that this person who i love is capable of being so manipulative. I spend a lot of time thinking about things. Where I have gone wrong. How whats going on righ tnow is affecting my psyche. I know I deserve better. Believe me, I have plenty of ego and self esteem. I just really am struggling to see how this person who I have been with most of my adult life could treat me like this.
