Romeo, I did get tested just a few weeks ago and saw doc on Monday - all clear. H has not been tested (and seemingly doesn't want to).
I'm not sure if H is just "saying" all these things. I think he does care and still feel an emotional connection with him. With that said, I also think he doesn't see us working long term (since he's told me numerous times how much he loves me, does NOT want a D, "but we don't get along." I am at the point where I've accepted it (though I don't agree with it). He is entitled to his own feelings and opinions just as I am. If he thinks this is the best solution, then who am I to fight him on it, right? It'd be worse to keep trying to no avail and wasting precious time in our lives.
I am unsure of how to tell people we are D'ing/split up when they ask, and they will. "He cancelled MC and doesn't think we get along." OR "We both decided it's not working so we're parting ways?" I'm so confuuuuused. LOL.
I'm supposed to go to the courthouse to get our file re: everything soon.
Romeo, I agree most women prob do want to marry but not all -- personally, I don't even foresee that as a possibility in my future.
