What happens when I expose it? Who's to say that she doesn't loose her mind and decide that she wants the kids full time, and everything that she can take from me? It's just too damn scary. I would feel like I was playing poker with my relationship with my kids at stake. I cannot and will not gamble that. My daughter is only 7mon's old and I want her to know who her Daddy is. If I get shared physical custody, I know she will know.
This is why I told you in my very first posts to you to GET LEGAL ADVICE. Your attorney can help give you the "best case/worst case" scenarios, so that you can make an informed decision about your risks, rights, vulnerabilities, etc. Have you talked to one yet??
No one's asking you to gamble away your visitation/custody with your kids ... you're getting WAY ahead of yourself. Wanna know what ONE THING you should do? YOu're right, don't spend the $$$ on a PI --- spend it on a bulldog, "men's rights" family law attorney, who specializes in father's rights and paternal custody issues. Get a consultation, and learn more about what you're dealing with here.