Listen, if you didnt feel some of the things you are feeling, I'd be worried about you.
This is some tough stuff. Really tough. And very often, it sucks big time.
Here's the thing. We can only control what we can control, ya know?
The rest, well, in God's hands. But I know you know that.
You are a wonderful, caring, loving man and father. No matter how much time you get with your kids (and when the two oldest are 18, they get to decide), they know who you are. They do.
So, it's time to dig in a little deeper for a bit.
You will get through this and so will they. Know how I know? You have been through so much in your life and come out the other side and you will show them and get them through it.
Show them what it means to be strong, fair, compassionate. Show them that you will always be there for them. Show them that though life sometimes throws some tough sh#t at you, you will survive. Show them, my friend.
And remember, no one knows what the future holds. Your relationship with your wife today does not necessarily have to look the same in the future. And I am not talking about the marriage. I am talking about two people who share a lifetime of memories and children.
But, you can't control her side of it. You can, however, control your side of it.
Remember always, that He is watching over you. We may not always understand at the moment what He has in store, but, keep the faith that He has our backs.
And Pei, it's not in the water, it's in our hearts. It's what we have endured. Giving up, rolling over, not an option in our neck of the woods. Right Eric?
