I did. The ball has always been in your court. You were to busy talking about the H an MIL to see it. Imagine that.. somehow you got control back without doing anything. Weird.
"geez, is that why he looked at me and said "oh i can see the gears grinding in your head. you just want to win"?"
Maybe. He knows you right?
"despite being so competitive, i did not compete for his affections."
"i tried to compete for his attention but i kept losing that battle. it frustrated me. but still, i didn't call it quits. i would have kept trying."
Attention.. and Affection are 2 different things. I could hate you but you could still get my attention. I can't hate you and give you affection.
Journal my statements above. I am gonna leave it at that for tonight.
Think.. Ponder.. What can you learn?
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
