Start a thread with your situation so that you can both journal which will help you think through all the problems you face, as well as give people a place to offer advice and solace. You're not alone. Sadly, not alone at all.
Pain is something we all share, so you're among some of the most sympathetic people. You may hear advice that is hard to take. Your heart will mislead you many times.
Have you read DR? I'd recommend it, as it'll explain a lot of the strategies people discuss here.
