BG I'm so sorry for you. Do you have family and friends (other than the one who ditched you) nearby?

It's hard to focus, but you have to find something to keep you strong when it gets rough. Your daughter needs a strong, confident mother to raise her. You have every right to be angry too, and you don't have to accept what he has done. I would read the thread on boundaries, even if they lead to him leaving the house and you having to pay the mortgage yourself.

Your daughter needs a safe, healthy environment, and you do too!

Take one day at a time, and as much as I hate to do it, it's okay to cry. Holding in so much hurt and pain is impossible; you're not weak for crying, nor for being angry. I'd say you have a righteous justification for being angry.

Oh, and about wanting to bang the first person you could. That's completely normal; just don't do it... wink It really won't make you feel better, and most likely will make you feel worse.