How much longer in Separated?

[jon2911]

Good week, but hard. I sent an e-mail to Max, who owns the company, linking to my first full web site and asking to meet with him. Lots of advice from W on how to word that. I'm very happy with how it came out.

http://www.alex-transportation.com

Got a freebie phone Tuesday night, so thankful for it. I'm really getting serious with this Dave Ramsey stuff. He said the other day "broke people ask how much a month, rich people ask how much". Ouch. Another iPhone would be $1,000 by that measure.

I have some friends in town until Friday, then the company bowling party. Went out last night to a William Fitzsimmons show, incredible! He writes most of his songs about divorce, believe it or not. Actually very healing stuff and it was all new to me.

Called W after the show, asked if we were still on for the weekend and told her I'd love her to come to the party. She said "no, you don't need to have a W sometimes, and then not other times". I told her no one knows anything, it wouldn't matter. She said again "that wouldn't be good". I told her I was upset with the timing on a weekend she was supposed to be here, but would still love for her to come.

It was a crazy idea anyway, but would have been fun. IM this morning "Bummed it didn't work out but it's probably for the best since I've been feeling so poorly." Then a dream she had about a mutual friend of ours.

I called and told her she's still welcome to come and skip the party. She said she'd need to leave Saturday afternoon anyway. She seemed really down. Has a big meeting with an insurance company today. I know her Medicare kicks in next month, but COBRA ended this month. So she might be in a bind.

It's amazing to even think of W on Medicare. She was always talking down about people who used it.

I don't want to go to the party without her. I think it was worth the risk, in case she surprised me like when she came to my show and agreed to meet the band. I'm just sad, questioning whether things really are moving forward. It seemed like they were earlier this month, and now we're back to being stuck. Reading her message from this morning is encouraging though. At least she was "bummed". And bringing up a mutual college friend she's cut off contact with is big also.