I felt like a failure for a long time because of the ssm - even though I seemed to be the only one trying to do anything about it. What the past couple weeks have done for me is make me realize I didn't deserve a blind letter from a lawyer. In fact, I didn't deserve any of this. Yes - we had a ssm - but I wasn't in it alone. And you don't blindside your mate with a letter from a stranger stating you want to end the marriage.
It does hurt. It all hurts. But I agree that DB/DR has helped me to find "me" again. Here's something else that helps me and maybe it will help you: when you are feeling especially low, trying lifting your chin an inch. For me, it gives my confidence a boost. Hope it helps you too.
He: WAH Me: LBW Precious: DD
~ I'm grateful for every day I have to improve the way I relate.