Well, that was weird - couldn't log on this morning and the board kept saying my password was incorrect - even though I double checked my original email with the password and it WAS correct. Finally had to apply for a temporary password. Pardon me if I'm a little paranoid after that episode last year where all my threads were mysteriously erased!!!

Had a couple of nice jogs on the beach with h this week - I have to remember how very important athletic companionship is to him and make sure that stays high on my priority list. He's struggling a bit this week - another death - an older guy who was one of the founders of the surf club my H belongs to died in a single-car accident last weekend. And then he learned a professional colleague of his was just diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer. All of which feeds into his midlife crisis - okay, not a crisis anymore, more of a midlife reevaluation - and certainly doesn't help his depression. He has been great though about making sure I understand it's not about me and he loves me

Ellie