Not sure where to start, or end. WAW?

[john28]

Update for today:

She left yesterday morning for the family reunion that was planned. I called her on her drive up which is about 8 hours or so to keep her company in the car, and see how she was doing (which I regularily do when she takes this trip). We talked for about 45 minutes about silly stuff, just having a good time. I told her, "In the past when you've been on the road I haven't always talked to you for very long - but I know that's important to you and I felt like this is something I want to do." She replied with, "Yes, it's nice. The company definitely helps pass the time." In the past conversations were 5 minutes or so.

It was a pretty miserable experience being home alone all night last night. She called me that evening to chat and we talked about 20 minutes or so and she said she was going to bed. I tried to keep myself busy and I was on FB about 2 hours later and she IM'd me.... she didn't go to bed. We video chatted for a while then said our goodnights.

Today at lunch she called me, but I didn't pick up the phone... I don't know... I really wanted to talk to her but I felt like if I did the "needy" me would come out - it was the feeling I had at the moment. I sent her a txt about an hour later that said, "Just saw you called, what's up? Rough stuff here at work today..." and she hasn't responded. I'm pretty sure she is taking a nap because she was out early this morning (and S4 has to nap too). She's not online FB or gmail.

So - I'm hanging on every word she says. I feel impulsive to call her but I'm not. This is some tough tough tough stuff. After going though all this emotional roller coaster and feeling better about us, she leaves me to go on a visit to MIL for 10 days like planned. 10 freaking days - I don't know how I'm going to make it. This is excruciating.

I just keep telling myself - be strong. GAL. Don't be needy. She still loves you, and still says it. Don't F that up.

I'm hoping that if I can remain strong and GAL while she is gone and not be needy she will return missing me. She said before she left that she was going to miss me and "this is just another regular trip, don't worry while I'm gone." HAH! Oh boy.

Good news - I'm going to play golf for the first time this afternoon in about 6 weeks since all of this stuff happened! I think I forgot how to swing a club.

Do you think she's thinking about me as much as I am about her?