azrob..can you continue living this way? Do you love her? Do you REALLY want to stay married to her or are you afraid of getting divorced? I think you deserve better. She sounds like a huge mess!
Well, I know I cant spend enternity sexless. Been 5 weeks now and Im getting punchy. I absolutely lover her with all my heart. And my heart is being removed from my chest right now with a dull spoon. I really do want to stay married to her. I have been divorced once before and I am well versed in the truck wreck that that causes.
I deserve to be with someoe who loves me without question. She says she does, but that I don't appreciate what she can offer me. Which is where a lot of my hesistation is coming from. I mean the fire does fade in long term relationships and maybe what she is telling me is absolutey true. My problem has always been that I was being told this while at the exact same time she was get all her physical needs to be desired met from this other guy.
Having it rubbed in my face for a couple years sucked. And why I forced it to end. But this situtaion is far worse then it was when she was seeing him. And thats where IM stuck.
