OK Dan. I have to plead stupidity here. I came back to where we were last night and failed to notice that there was an additional page. My last post seems strangely out of context.
Dude, you do sound really down right now. But even so, look how strong you are. Even bummed, you are still helping Jstar and others feel good about themselves. I remember reabing your string when I first found this. I was blubbering like a little girl - for both of us. You were in agony and I was right there with you. I'd like to say something encouraging like: "It will all be over soon and you'll be really happy." but hell, I don't know that. I lag you a little in this. However that we will be happy again is what the pros are telling us. so far they haven't steered either of us wrong yet, so there's the encouragement.
Steve made a good point, but you know, there's going to be lots of opportunities to get that right. Your D will grow up and will have a ton of great influence from you about what happened and that you BOTH love her. Don't beat yourself up about that. And if you want to go to the store for those pints of ice cream and a nice talk, you can set that right tonight if you feel bad about it.
Point is: You are miles away from the depths you were in just a couple of months ago. And we got your back. Always.
Oh BTW, Jstar: unbelievably, I have some experience with the breast feeding issue. can you get a breast pump and save the milk for when you aren't around? Both my kids were breast fed and W worked. So she just pumped and stored. When the babies were in daycare, they still had breast milk.
Cheers.
ADAPT. OVERCOME. IMPROVISE. -Tom Highway
Me: 43 W: 40 S12 & S9 Married 17yrs Together 20yrs