When your whole world has been turned upside down and you are left wihtout an "explanation" it's hard to not 'buy' in to what the WAS says and projects to the world about why they left, even if you reckon you know what REALLY happened.
I totally and completely relate. Doesn't it feel like you didn't get closure? Like a satisfactory explanation or reason for his behavior? That is why it took me soooo long to see that stbxh is emotionally immature and that is why he did what he did. Once I saw the truth, I was able to have "closure."
Acceptance=peace for yourself! Seriously! It doesn't mean forgiveness necessarily. It is coming to term with the reality and dealing with it and moving on. IMO!
Who will be helping you take care of bub?
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004