Sheesh--who is this nice person in my house right now??? I have heard people say this over and over, but it's weird when it is happening to YOU!
The guy I would have always wanted is here!! Helpful, patient, generous. Making dinner, cleaning up his own mess, apologizing for things.
It has put me on edge! Ugh!! I feel sort of ....depressed and sad!! (maybe because I'm sick more than anything else...and my sister....).
And I had a bad dream last night--first one in ages. I dreamed I was a teenager living with my parents, and then I was 47 (my age) and there was nothing in between--just "young" and then "old". In my dream I was HORRIFIED to be 47 all of a sudden like that. Then I woke up and thought--sheesh--it really isn't all that old, is it?
I guess I'm having some insecurity about my age and "starting over". But when I think about it long enough, sheesh--I have so much going for me, including how to have a better R in the future w/ WHOEVER I end up with, that I need to stop this.
Didn't hurt that my dentist this a.m. asked me how old I was and said "really?" when I told him. I was like, you say that to everyone--but he said he doesn't!
