Cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it

[ImprovedRomeo]

Thanks guys. wow...yesterday was crazy- it started out busy but fun talking about the girls and stuff and then it ended in a way that totally deflated me.

I hear what you guys are saying and today I see things a bit more clearly but I still feel this angst inside that she's milking me and the system to her max benefit and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. I'm a high earner so I'm screwed, maybe I shouldn't be just to teach her a lesson and to turn the table.

I guess what really upset me is the fact that she told me a few months ago that when she's eligible for her benefits she'll switch and I can take her name off. Now in her usual sneaky and lying ways she didn't do that (not even mention it to me) even after she qualified for it. Like usual she made that decision single handidly even though it affects me. Why???! Because she's a pathetic loser who wants to feed off of a dead marriage. I'm sorry if I'm hitting the nerve here for anyone in the opposite situation but right now that's how I see her. A parasite that wants to feed off of its dead host. She doesn't want me for me but she wants my money.

I feel I'm being taken advantage of- first the emotional hell I went through over this sorry excuse for a woman and now she's trying to financially abuse me too. My standard of living has changed drastically. I end up handing over 30% to uncle sam and 35% to her and left with maybe 35% for me. There's something wrong with this pic. Maybe I should be like her, get a minimum wage job and let the system support me. I guess she knows how to work the system and I've been gulible and naiive and kept 'doing the right thing'.

Whew! I just had to get that off my chest. Now if she had asked me nicely I wouldn't have a problem but it's also the way she asserts her demands that I do want to say the two words that wii suggested.

As for dating, guys I'm not dating anyone. I'm just not turning down offers to get out of the house and do some fun stuff which doesn't including sleeping with someone or even kissing etc. Only frendship- I'm not even attracted to any of these G1-4 girls. Girls I'm usually attracted to are not interested in me- LOL