When I started my piecing thread in December, I did not think I would end up here.
But, here I am.
I was known as Rockedworld in newcomers.... when my world was rocked by my H's infidelity and lies and my world was blown apart. With the help of the great people here, I found strength within myself to take a stand and bust the A.
My H ended the A and we started piecing. In piecing, I was known as Ruledworld.... as I was taking charge of ruling my own life. It went well at first, there were many positive signs of true remorse and coming out of the fog.
Over time, my H became more resistent to working on the M and started to completely refuse MC. He started to talk more and more about wanting to "resolve unresolved issues" re: the A. As I maintained my stand of no contact and the boundaries I needed, he detached more and more.
And, you guessed it.... resumed contact in mid June.
I discovered and confronted this the end of June.
My H has refused to cut off contact again, even though he swears to this day that they have not resumed a R.
He has also refused MC and announced to me that he is "done".
So, here I am.
The kids have been told.
The kids and I are moving by the end of August. This is by my choice. We currently live in a small town that is a 40 min. commute to where I work. I can't afford that commute nor the big house as a single parent. The kids and I are moving in with my parents closer to where I work until we can get on our feet financially. My H will remain in the home to fix it up and sell it.
Part of me is still in shock that I am here. I thought we would make it.
Another part of me is grieving deeply.
Another part of me is feeling stronger than I ever have in my life.
Another part of me is scared out of my mind.
And, another part of me is focusing on making my life what I choose for it to be and being excited for the future.
I am in charge of my life and I have grown and changed and learned so much in this process.
I have made friends through this forum that I am so grateful for and will treasure always.
I have a lot of challenges before me, but I have the best support system and an inner strength that will get me through. And I have faith.
