I'm not sure that I would ever marry again. Perhaps it's not for me. How do you guys feel about that personally (question for all of you in "Surviving the big d?" Do you think you would you ever remarry?
H called last night saying he had some of my mail. I stopped by to get it. Then we went out for a bite to eat. Last night he said how he loves and cares for me and he really really really doesn't want a divorce "but"--and then he starts saying how we dont get along at all, how we are fine for a few days and it starts again and (words words words). I said I agreed with everything he was saying and that I won't fight him anymore. Then he said I am making it sound like he wants a D. Huh? My thing is, if you are with someone and they say they love you and DO NOT want a divorce then say "but all we do is fight/we can't get along/there are too many problems" then how do you respond? You let them go, right? Why say all these positive things and then follow up with a negative thing? Makes no sense.
He stayed over last night. It was nice being in bed with him. He wanted sex but that did not happen (though I am definitely wanting sex lately!--gah, how to deal?!) LOL. We snuggled and he kissed me goodbye this morning when he left for work. I still love him. I know I suck at "detaching."
And with all this happening... I will not stand in his way anymore. I know that. It's bizarre.
