What's obvious is that you've evaded all of the questions. Be honest here. Look how many original posters aren't even responding to you any more. You haven't listened to any one.
Have I judged or criticized you? No. I simply asked questions out of concern. You were the one who mentioned that you were taking medication, but was taking it sporadically because it would affect your moods.
I simply asked you what it is you want. You're the one who has been criticizing your H one minute, then wanting him back so badly the next. As a former crisis C, I can see what it is you're going through.
What you're going through right now is hard, I get it. I've been going through the same. All I'm saying is to deal with it in a healthy way.
Did it ever occur to you that your son may be acting out because of how you were acting as well as his father? You never did answer the question of why you banned him from using the computer. YOU might have thought it was unhealthy, but maybe to him he needed an outlet. If you are thinking about your son. See to his needs gently based on what he's comfortable with. Not you.
"Last time we went it seemed like h was flirting with therapist. He is on such and ego trip. He thinks he is Gods gift now, no humility."
See this is you projecting and criticizing. Not me. I've done nothing even remotely similar to that.
Have you ever asked yourself why no one from your older posts have responded to you?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.