Book, support or any other tips

[MarkIII]

Well I spent the night reading the book, I will be rereading for sure.
One thing I have done since fathers day when the love of my life left me is chase and find ways to connect, try and change her mind etc... Only thing it got me is she has a restraining order (which Friday hopefully it will get dismissed) (her dad and the om a cop helped push it) the chasing calling emailing most likely has driven her a million miles away (least I feel). She wont barley even look at me, stands on the porch or kinda behind a bush by the porch. She wont even budge to try and cooperate with visiting or having my kids call. Everything has to be done through her lawyer.

So today no more facebook posts, youtube song dedications. Going to try and do the 180.. I already started a few weeks ago going to church, I still go to MC as well. I just need help and support to get through this. I'm even coming to realize how she fell out of love.

Any opinions help support is greatly appreciated.

Also do you think there is some sort of hope? Least for a new marriage since I realize the old one is dead. How long has it taken to see any progress? (side note I did get her to smile tonight when I dropped the kids off, with something I told her our 4 yr old said).

My orig. snitch is in the WAW section.