thanks MHL I think it is great that you keep a journal. It really does keep things in check. We tend to be stuck in the moment and forget what we have been thru....we cling on to the very last thing that we hear or see.
As for me...I don't think I want my M...but I still cannot seem to completely let go. I think I am definitely more detached than I have been....but I am still not at that point to say to myself 'oh it's you...oh ok..yeah..I'm busy- I'll get back to you later' or 'oh it's you..how are things going?'. I am kind of in a no mans land. I am embarressed to admit...I think I am looking for him to want me back more than I want to be back with him. I know this is wrong..but I am just being honest. It isn't to reject him like he rejected me...I think it is just that feeling that most of us have (even if we don't want to admit to it)...what is it called?
