Thank you for your thoughts and prayers for my father.
He has double pneumonia right now...left detox..and is back in medical. (still being detoxed).
We are currently trying to figure out next steps. Detox is not enough. We want to get him into a long term program but this has proven to be very difficult for several reasons: 1) he just wants out of the hospital 2) he is still in denial of his problem (at least on the surface) 3) he is 72 and feels like his life is over...really has no will to live 4) he is currently on Medicare and AARP- we are limited with our options to get him post detox care 5) he needs to be in a program with people his age...so he can some what relate to people around him 6) HE DOESN'T WANT TO GET BETTER...HE WANTS TO LIVE HIS LIFE THE WAY HE WANTS TO LIVE IT- WITH ALCOHOL (same as #3 but I thought I would stress it anyway)
It is so painful to watch someone you care about self destruct. My IC said tonight that she noticed I was finally being assertive...I told her that I wasn't going to support my father if he was going to choose alcohol over his family...I will not speak to him again after all of this if he decides to go back to drinking. She thought this was a good thing for me. I wish it felt better.
I said I felt bad that I have decided to not be there for him after all he has provided me with. She pointed out that this was all monetary...he hasn't satisfied my emotional needs...just like my H. Hmmmmmmm..........
