You can't have everything, where would you put it?

[ClingingToHope]

Call from STBXW today at lunch. I'd texted her and expected one in return, but she likes to call. I have a rule that if it's a call from her cell then I don't pick up. That means she's out in her car and it can't be that important. If it's from her desk then it could be an emergency.

No emergency.

She told me D11 would be at the house for me to pick up when I go to get D7 for Medieval Times. She's going to be there from 3:15 until I get there.

"She'll be fine at home for a while."

This is the second time this week she's said this. Yesterday, she told me to just drop D11 at home after tuba practice. I told her, no, I'd just bring her to work.

I'm guessing D11 spent Monday afternoon home alone as well.

I didn't say anything on the phone because really what's the point. I'm just noting it here in case she begins leaving the kids by themselves more and more because of her job. If it becomes a major issue I'll have to say something.

I've done it as well. Instead of dragging them to the store or to a softball game, I'll leave them at the apartment.

I just don't want D11 becoming a latch-key kid. She's a follower and easily influencible. And at 11, well teen issues are starting to come in.

My sister called wanting advice for what she's going through then asked me what's happening on my end -- and I went through 20 minutes of developments.

I guess I haven't totally tired of talking about it. Funny, I was telling her of the few instances on here where the D was done and the WAS came back a year or two years later saying they made a mistake.

I guess I'm still clinging to hope.

I've been trying to get to the bottom of my angst this week. I don't really think it's the court date next week. I think it's more financial issues mixed with a stall on the GAL side of things.

I've been out and expanding my circle of friends. But the church group has kind of stalled. 31 has missed the past couple of events and I think may be dropping out. 35 was at the last one and left pretty fast. This weekend I'm working, which is good, I really need the money. But that means I'll just be out briefly on Friday.

The big summer stuff is mostly over. Tonight will be good with D7 but I guess I'm waiting for the next positive development. Perhaps it'll be renting the house.

I saw the county fair on the calendar. I'll be out of town with the girls for softball. That's good, but it gave me a flash back to last year. STBXW was spotted at the fair with a guy and left on his motorcycle. We had our last good talk the next week and she said he was just a friend.

I'm not sure if I believe that -- but again, what does it really matter anymore?

The Serenity Prayer. Lord, give me serenity to accept the things I cannot change.