Lola,

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I think I do have a sense of self...but for some reason....after some time- I just lose it...and it doesn't make me happy.


I think this is where your GAL activities come into play. Once you begin to do something for yourself..things that YOU really want to do and not just to keep your mind off of your H, we'll then you will begin to feel better about YOURSELF.

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help me understand him a bit more.

The understanding is good as long as afterwards you still realize that there is NOTHING that you can do to fix him.

My prayers are with you and your father.

God Bless,
Eric


"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
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