Quote: live my life and hope that h doesn't get left behind...I just don't want to be one of those couples that go about their own business and simply live together and on occassion are h and w know what I mean?
LL, do you feel like that is how it is going now? kinda How would H be left behind? put it this way...before son was born one of my gf's was dating one of h's old friends..they would call us to see if we wanted to join them going to a comedy show or here or there..often h would say no...I'd go anyway..h wasn't fazed..he can sleep on the couch wether I'm here or not Do you plan on shaking things up? what would the point be? Are you afraid to rock the boat? na, just not sure if I want to jump into the ocean and swim or simply get out of the cabin and hang on the deck in the sun As a former lug, I can tell you that it does take a shock to the system to make one move. too many shocks...more of the same from me...plus sure h does step it up a bit after a shock but you know the saying "the changes aren't real or lasting" he inevitably reverts back to lugdom
I do recognize that you are living your life. It is good that you are going to your classes. Are you happy with your classes? the emt class was fun, this class is a 2 week hazmat required class..kinda a drag but the first class we made fun at least at our table Do you use classes as an escape? a yup! What do you want from life? I wanna be a supermodel! no just kidding, I want the fundamentals...I want friends and family...I want to laugh, I want to walk in the rain..I want to kiss in the rain...I want to sit on the beach and watch the sun set...I want to someday get my masters and work with troubled kids somehow connected to the school system so that I can still be around for the kids. For me, it is difficult to cut through some of this stuff.
I asked you before. What do your guts tell you? that this m will ultimately end someday with or without a divorce Do you feel deep down that things will get better or not? for a while they'll get better but in the end when all is said and done it wont A counselor of mine said to me once, "be glad that things happened now rather than 10 years from now."
