Thank all of you for your thoughts. She is in rehab right now but it is outpatient, I can't get her into one where you stay all the time yet. I went with her to an AA meeting last night. I still have hope that she telling me the truth. She says she wants to get better, that she doesn't want a life with pills. I am watching myself. I have started eating and trying to take care of me. Trust is still an issue with me. We went to a counseler Tuesday, I don't know why, I just told her I would go with her. It seemed to really help me understand some of the problems that she thought we had that I didn't even know about. Nothing big just small stuff. Well, her drug problem is the first and most important thing to get fixed. I am not even thinking about the R and I won't even talk to her about restoring it until she is well. I am not being mean about it I just tell she needs to get well and then we can talk about it.
