Time for full disclosure.... I had a huge revelation last night while reading the infidelity section of DR. I now understand that my addiction to internet porn was central to my wife deciding it was over. That for her it was worse than an affair because she was competeing with a machine and losing. Not to mention the fact that I denied it when confronted. When she went home she received the love and support from family and friends that she should have gotten from our home. I have been "clean" since November but until last night I had no context of what it was doing to her. My wife is not perfect by any means but the lion's share of this disaster rests on me. I am humbled and even more ashamed than I was before. I am also grateful that she speaks to me at all. Big night, huh?
