Both meanings are quite accurate. I do feel very vulnerable and powerless, unable to move forward. And now that I'm having more, for lack of a better word, lucid, moments I do wonder if some of it is fear preventing me. I don't know what's out there so I'll cling to what is familiar, even if it is painful.
Bingo!
I dunno. In my sitch, I'd rather deal w/the unknown. The known of H, OW & A is no fun. Sure, it's painful at times, but at least I have my self-respect & sanity.
Keep trying to walk forward. There is no other option ... at the end of the day, you & ds have you. And you are pretty damn ok.
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
