How do I save my marriage to husband in MLC?

[RLay1100]

Eric,

There is something I realized today. I have been speaking up for myself more lately. I don't do that when it comes to my H, but I do in other situations (work, family).
When I was younger (pre-H), speaking up for myself and expecting respect came naturally. Over the course of my M, I definately fell flat into the doormat position and barely ever spoke up to anyone.
Confidence is not a full-fledged personality trait of mine yet, but it is getting better. (High five? lol)


My days are mainly spent at work. I work 10-12 hour days (first shift), 5-6 days a week. I work in a HOT factory that makes car parts (itchy fiberglass...ugh).

A typical day for me is:
Wake up at 6 a.m. and get ready for work. I kiss the boys (still sleeping) goodbye and leave them with my sister or my mother.
I get off work at 5 (sometimes 7). I go straight home and spend some time with the boys as we cook dinner. After dinner, we go to the gym around 8:30 and work out until 9:45.
Bedtime is 11:30 or there abouts. (I MUST catch the local news broadcast, and I like to fall asleep watching David Letterman. lol)

My support group meets every Wednesday for an hour to an hour-and-a-half. They mainly discuss with me how I NEED to get angry...I SHOULD be angry...STOP defending him...

I don't have a whole lot of "free" time. I love to dance. I love to write (journal, poetry). I love to read. I actually wrote a LOT when I was in my M, but I have only been able to write here in the last few months.