she walked..I didn't...should I have?? or will I always be the dependable wife??? the one who's here? the one who bites her tounge to save her m..the one who accepts "just enough" almost to spite herself..the one who just keeps it all in...I never kept it in before tony...h always knew exactly what he was doing when he was doing it that pissed me off...that didn't stop him...that pushed him away...now I keep my mouth shut and put on a happy face..tell myself it could be worse...be happy at least he came home...how long can I tell myself it could be worse when I know the truth is it could be better...not sitting here saying why should I be the one to change...I have changed...h is still the same dud he was before..
shortly after discolsure of ow...h took off to new orleans with buddie to see super bowl...he left a night early to plow...he was there for the weekend...came back late due to snow or something and then the next day spent all day watching a tape of the game with buddie at buddies house?
that was not a result of h's a..or anything else..that was a result of h being who he is...selfish.
