I still love you...so you have that going for you!!!
You said:
Quote: your just lucky that I don't travel in a circle to meet someone to open my mind to the true possibilities of life.
That is very interesting. It tell me that you are unhappy with your life, regardless of the R that you have. Also, it suggests that you are looking at your life in terms of others than in terms of yourself. We open our own minds to the true possibilities of life. What is it that lostlove wants for herself. Also, I see a woman who finds that she isn't getting a chance to use her mind. Maybe you are really mad at yourself.
You undoubtedly have some things to figure out. Don't let your life pass you by.
