Think I am dead now.

[Jstar]

for whatever my .02 is worth:

I can see you love her very much and care about her well being. it's obvious she is sick just as if she had cancer. her od is a cry for help. i don't agree with it but can certainly understand how much pain she is in to reach such a place to try to take her life.

you are in for a very long road in which you can not should not expect anything. both your mental stabilities are being call into check. that is your priority. when she goes to rehab they will have tools for you to cope with, advice, and all that good stuff.

i think your sitch is taking a slightly different approach at this time.