Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[awest1217]

Give yourself a little time. I have been at a stalemate for 7 months before I got ok with all of this, and if you remember I had the horrible melt down at Christmas. When that happened, I decided I would stop letting him and OW hurt me and turn me into someone I didn't like. It has been all uphill from there. After that, he didn't talk to me for almost a month and I got used to being alone so when it happened over and over and now when I have made it, it is not a big deal. Actually I feel liberated knowing that H knows as little about me as I know about him. He doesn't know what I do. He knows a little because S will tell him what we do, but he doesn't know everything and won't ever again.

I am finally in control of my life and it is good. Yes I still have to talk to H, and that will become much less once the D is going and finalized which in our case shouldn't take long (my friend's took 3 months) so that will be that. I could be D'd by the end of the year. The control that I finally gained and seeing what he was doing to me and what it was making me become is why I am so strong now and at peace. I didn't like that woman. I didn't like the girl who was pushed around and honestly emotionally abused. My mom is that woman, and I yelled at her for it so I don't want to do the same thing.

For you, it gets easier. You will get used to not talking to H and honestly when he does want to talk, it will be a hassle because you will be busy. It takes time, but unless he decides to change his ways with OW3, you will see how your life is so much better without him always in it.

Enjoy the weekend! Have some fun and relax. Try not to think about H at all. Just focus on you and S.