Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

I called her today but got her voice mail. I left her a message pretty much word for word with what Robx suggested...signing the agreement, not doing it to get her back, not arguing anymore, me acting like an adult, me being there if she ever wanted to talk, telling her I didn't want her to go to counseling if she didn't want to and I would be ok either way, etc. It felt good. It felt good to finally stand-up, be a man and do the right thing for my W.

It shouldn't have taken me this long to do it but at least I finally got there. Sometimes I think too much before I finally act. If nothing else I hope it makes her feel less stressed about the house. It's the least I can do.

It was a bit strange after I left the message. I felt like this is exactly the kind of thing I should have done long ago...doing what is right for my W instead of just what I wanted. It was weird to tell her for the first time that I would be ok no matter what happens to us. Maybe my first step in letting her go, I don't know. Yeah, maybe it is too late now. I had a wonderful woman and through my mistakes I lost her. I told her that I wish her the best and for her happiness.

I did find it odd that I hadn't heard from her since our emails on Sunday. I know she said she was worried about the house but she never got back to me. Oh well, no matter. I feel like I finally did the right thing today. Today was a good day. Felt like a weight had been lifted off of my chest. Made me feel so good to leave the message for my W knowing it hopefully helps HER.