That is exactly what we have been working on in IC. IC thinks that because of my background- and seeing my mother's behavior....I was OK with accepting so little. This is scratching the surface...those 45 minutes each week go by so quick.
I think you are right about lacking a sense of self. I, like Lala, did lose myself in my M...and in several past R as well. When I am not in a R or just starting a R- I think I do have a sense of self...but for some reason....after some time- I just lose it...and it doesn't make me happy.
You are right about trying to figure out my H...I wanted to determine whether it was bi-polar, depression, NPD or just selfishness. Bi-polar and depression were treatable for the most part...NPD is portrayed as a lost cause in most articles I read...selfishness seemed less 'permanent'. None are a great option....and it really doesn't matter which one it is I suppose. It really does me no good to diagnose...but I thought perhaps it would help me understand him a bit more.
thanks for asking about my dad. He was admitted into the detox unit last night but they had to send him back to medical- he was running a fever today and his chest was concerning them. They are doing a bunch of tests. He probably won't be going back to the detox unit...but staying in medical where they can keep at eye on him while he detoxes. Hopefully there isn't anything seriously wrong with him...and the symptoms he is showing are a direct result of withdrawal.
