Training for a Marathon, Hoping for a Sprint

[lookin4support]

Thanks, pinhead. To be honest, had I not returned to my faith, I would probably be in a room with padded walls right now. A couple of things that I hold onto are 2 Corinthians 12:10 which says, "That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.", and the poem Footprints. I have always loved that poem, but it means even more now because I know that for the past nine months there has only been one set of footprints, as the Lord has been carrying me.

Events of the past couple of days have shown me that I am totally in control of this situation and that she is shell-shocked at what is happening to her. I don't think it will change her actions, but I do know that right now she is having a lot more difficulty dealing with this situation than I am.

I told her today that once the ball starts rolling it is going to be moving really fast (like 4-6 weeks until divorce is final) and that I wasn't going to do anything to slow it down. Told her I was just ready for it to be over so I could move on with my life. Her response was shock that it could happen that fast and her voice wavered as she spoke after that. Again, I don't think she will change her actions, but the consequences are coming much faster than she expected.