...She does not know I set up the C session. If she asks what I ahve been doing I will tell her, but I am not going to rub it in her face like "see i am doing what you expect me to do to get help".
Again, if she asks, tell her, but if she doesn't ask, don't wave it like some certificate of good behavior, "look at me, look at what I'm doing!!!", only tell her if she's interested in knowing what you were doing, you don't have to lie:
"this is something I need to do for myself to deal with personal issues I apparently have and things only I can fix for myself: lying, being afraid of confrontation with you, arguing, being unhappy, drinking, etc."
