Making progress and reconnecting.....ayieee

[CPCajun]

I am trying not to go "melty man". Its hard. The only other things I have done was send her a postcard from the family, and the kids ask to get her a t-shirt.

Since we got back, she has been excited to see me. She has asked me to stay in bed with her, but is still cautious of me moving back in completely. she has had the D dismissed. She calls and text me alot not, she also is excited when I come home. She talks, sits with me, and wants to be by me. She even tells me she loves me.

Currently, I am not doing anything else, but my usual GAL. The only exception is we are having sex. I know we had it twice, and the phone sex.

My problem, is that it appears to be going good, but for some reason, I am cautious of moving back in. I see she has cut off all communication to the OM. She is now telling me what she spends money on. As far as I can see, has been truthful on anything we talk about or she tells me. I have not gone back to my old ways, though do get a bit of bad behavior, which I catch myself on and apologize for.
I still love her and would do anything for her, but I have this feeling in me, that the M is different. That W is different. Its a feeling that I do not care if we reconcile or D. It's strange....I dont know, I am just confused now.