My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

bit of an update--
it's been a very discouraging summer. I had really anticipated that things would be much easier financially with the new job, but so many things have broken down that I'm not seeing much of a difference yet. right now my dryer hasn't worked since February or March, I had to buy 3 new tires a week ago because my alignment is off (so I need to align my wheels), I need an oil change and new serpentine belt, my hot water pressure is very low, and my riding mower isn't working. my yard is literally the size of a football field, and I've tried to push-mow, but I can't take the heat. and my computer broke down--still trying to figure out what's wrong with it, hopefully not the motherboard. so I can't seem to get one thing fixed before a few more break down--it's very discouraging. and D14 starts high school in just a few weeks, so lots of expenses coming up there as well.

I'm getting mixed vibes at work--lots of stress there because of several administrative changes, and depending upon the day, my boss can be either patient and instructive or quite clear that I'm not proving to be a good fit. it has not been fun or enjoyable in any way and it would not surprise me at any point if I got called in and terminated. I've never been in this situation before--I've always, always walked in and picked things up well, but I don't even know what questions to ask here and it seems like I'm supposed to read minds--and I've always been bad at that! I was told on the first day that it would be 6-8 months before I knew what I was doing, and it's been about 2 1/2--so this is not unexpected!

Odd--when so much has been out of my control for the past couple of years, I've kinda gotten used to not even trying to control anything. This will work itself out, and I'll survive, and I'll somehow deal with all the consequences. But I am a bit tired of holding my breath.

and my Texas friend...who knows what's going on with him. in spite of the note earlier in the month about feeling close and comfortable, I hear from him a lot less often, and in briefer notes for the most part. maybe it's because he feels close and doesn't need more frequent contact...but I think I do, because I feel pretty distant.

not a very positive update, but there it is. I'm tired.