feelings as OW seems to be on way out

[forward]

I think that the news just gave me a jolt. I should add: this doesn't mean that X and OW are breaking up. I'm not sure what it is going to mean for them. As I thought about it, the way I was told seems to indicate that X is just as addicted to her as ever and "She'll be gone for two years." Is he waiting for her? Probably. But if she's smart, she'll leave his sorry @ss behind.

I really don't know what it means except that X will be spending a significant amount of time alone now.

As far as infidelity...I'm able to realize that it had a lot less to do with me than it did w/X.

Oh well, it is not as if X has indicated any kind of interest. I think that would actually hurt worse after all this damage.