Hey Hope4Love, you asked for thoughts so...I really hope you can cut this man out of your life and proceed with the D. Also you're not IN this relationship with him, he ended it and has a gf sweets. Posting in Piecing is all part of that - you need to work on acceptance that you are no longer together?
I have followed your thread for so long and hoped that you WOULDNT reconcile. We hear so many stories here, but a man who is angry and abusive to the point of making you shake and have panic attacks, thats not healthy and like Michelle says, not all marriages should be saved. Proceed with that mediation for coparenting too.
Hugs xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread