I need help and fast. I've been "still" with this situation basically trying to let go and let God. I didn't think God heard my cries.
God HAS heard your cries. He used his awesome power to lead you to this message board and you've had people respond to you telling you to leave your abusive husband.
But God also gave people free will, so it's up to you to act on the message God is sending you or think you know better. I don't mean to be harsh, but here's a classic joke that makes a point. God works in mysterious ways. Your husband is not possessed by evil demons. He is a spouse who no longer wants to be married. Your prayers aren't be ignored by God. You just don't know that his answer is coming to you in a form you didn't expect.
God cries everytime one of His children suffer. Leave the man who is disrespecting you and that unborn baby. You didn't leave earlier.
But you HAVE to leave now. This story might help.
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There was an old man sitting on his porch watching the rain fall. Pretty soon the water was coming over the porch and into the house.
The old man was still sitting there when a rescue boat came and the people on board said, "You can't stay here you have to come with us."
The old man replied, "No, God will save me." So the boat left. A little while later the water was up to the second floor, and another rescue boat came, and again told the old man he had to come with them.
The old man again replied, "God will save me." So the boat left him again.
An hour later the water was up to the roof and a third rescue boat approached the old man, and tried to get him to come with them.
Again the old man refused to leave stating that, "God will grant a miracle & save him." So the boat left him again.
Soon after, the man drowns and goes to heaven, and when he sees God he asks him, "Why didn't you save me? I thought you would grand me a miracle and you have let me down."
God replied, "You idiot, I don't know what you're complaining about. I sent three boats after you!!"
Listen to KnittedScarf (and everyone else) on this. I too used to cry out to God, in the middle of the night sometimes, "Why aren't you answering my prayers??!" I was in a 20-year sex-starved marriage, and as a man with a very high need for affection and physical touch, it was absolutely KILLING me.
"Change my wife's heart," I pleaded.
"Soften her heart towards me," I wailed.
"Holy Spirit, please move upon her heart and make her see how much I'm hurting," I cried.
Well, God had other plans for me, and for us, and they were different from what I thought they should be. Now, looking back, I can see how much I needed to grow, and strengthen. HE knew that, but I thought I knew better.
We often pray for a magic wand, NB, but God more often than not gives us a trowel. It's in the day-to-day little "digging" that we usually find ourselves, and grow stronger.
Pray for wisdom, and for CLARITY. And then pray for COURAGE, to do the right thing.
NB, it's true what PDT and KS have said about God hearing your prayers! We just dont always see the answers or choose to accept them. I've spent months crying and pleading to God and praying to everything and anything. I swore he gave up on me... I too cried in the middle of night, hoping God could make H fall back in love with me...
When my son was born three weeks ago, i realized that God did in fact answer my prayers and is giving me stregnth to get through this no matter how my sitch may end up. Sometimes we just have tunnel vision and dont see god standing on the sidelines.
I also commend you for not walking away and giving up so easily. Yes, this site is all about helping us "Save our Marriage" and if you walked away from working on it or just gave in... then you would be just the same as your H? Right?
Keep your chin up and take care of yourself... I know how you feel and how hard it is to be pregnant and going through this... Make sure you are resting and eating and taking care of yourself and the little one.
Keep posting, you are getting great advice and will meet so many supportive people on here that will help you no matter what road you and H will go down on.
