"a bit of change is good but that was too much change for me. i really regret it."
Explain more.
getting out there and meeting new people who are interested in being more than friends.
it was an ego boost that yes, someone finds me interesting. but i realize that i haven't let go yet. i'm not ready.
even though i've ranted about it in the past, it's not what i really want.
meeting people just feels wrong to me. i may suspect that he is seeing someone and we haven't actually divorced yet, but i'm not gonna try and hook up with someone just because he did. it's not a competition.
