I like Pei's assessment of an outsider looking in.
That is why I asked you the specific questions I did.
It is normal to dissassociate from something traumatic. It is a way to protect oneself.
It may be that you have to take it on an indiviual instance at first...
Like the first time he hit you or when you got pregnant with your third son.
I am not trying to push you over the edge by any means.
I just KNOW that in order to heal, in order to grow, in order to get to that place where you can actually have it within you to be able to say "No More", you have to feel the feelings.
You fear angering your H. I understand that.
Here, you have no one to fear. There will be no anger or abuse thrown your way...
So please, do not hold back.
I said before, some may not have a clue what to say, and others, may have a lot to offer. If it will help you to heal, that is really what is important.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
