How do I save my marriage to husband in MLC?

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The reason I asked that is because that is exactly what I told my counselor. He suggested I talk about it, write about it to help me deal with it. I told him that I can talk about it, even go into detail about the abuse, but that I am able to do that because I disassociate myself from it. I have a very big wall up mainly due to fear.