the next month or so is going to be pretty tought for me (I assume)
though h has been back home for about a year now it was this time (somewhere between thanksgiving and christmas) of year that I got that dredded call that h would be later than expected (as if that were the real issue) because he had to take someone into boston, yup enter LL's knowledge of ow.
Now I know that this time of year is no different than any other time of year as far as h's ability to be off somewhere doing things or being with people he shouldn't be with...BUT this is the time of year when things start to slow down..the clean-ups for the most part are done and whatever construction jobs going on are being finnished up and if it's not snowing there would seem to be little for h to be doing? That is to say less field work, less likely hood of customers needing apointment to talk about having work done and all around less work being done therefore less paper work for h to do in the office...of course there is the end of the year clean up of the equipment and maintenance of the trucks to over see and the bringing out of the winter equip and putting away of the summer stuff..but when h is at work all day this time of year the questions start to ring.
I don't remember clearly what his schedule was last year as he wasn't fully living here yet...but I do remember just after ow disclosure h was suddenly home early and energetic (taking kids for a walk while I showered and got dinner together) from that point on til the snow started.
I don't know what to believe all the time about what's really going on...is ow really gone? suppose the only way I'd ever know for sure is to just have him followed but don't feel like waisting the money cause I really don't know what I'd do if I found she was.
so be forewarned for some up's and downs from over the next month...not the typical ones but some major fear driven crapola...you know the extra fun ones that you've all grown to love me for.
