So annual reflection time. What a year this has beeen, not nearly the roller coaster as the past few years but still a wide range of events. This past year started out great with a really special birthday and my being able to replace my SUV.
School started with out many issues and the holidays rushed upon us. First time ex really started quoted child visitation. Then of course the horrible period in March when child services received a complaint on me. They found no merit to the claim but still felt like a huge punch to my stomach. Ex and his fiance prove how jaded and manipulative they are. They still deny it of course.
In the meanwhile, I had my heart fluttering with old boyfriend for a three month period. Well at least I know my heart could flutter still and that it was on the mend, because, well, it got broke again. Enough of the pity party.
So this summer I haven't done anything amazing but spending time with the kids. Still doing book club and saving my pennies to take S17 to Europe for graduation.
I think from a lot of what I have posted I really do see how serious I am. My relationships are usually deep and I am loyal to almost a fault. I don't want to change that but I think it would do me some good to figure out a way to become lighter, maybe not so leary of change. I will have my oldest graduate this year and he even commented to me the other day that he is a bit of a Mom's boy. He likes being home, likes to be with me and his siblings. I fear I will have that task of pushing the baby bird from the nest and tearfully watch him fly. Well that is what parents are for afterall.
Thanks to all of you guys here for supporting me and being such wonderful friends. I am not leaving but just wanted to voice my appreciation.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
You've come a long way kat, it's nice to see that things really do get easier over time.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
Sand in your shorts??? That's a new one but sure since it's virtual and don't have a clue how to make it!!
Romeo: yes, things do get better. I am 4 days shy of being 2 years divorced!
Kalni: did you stay up just for me?? I am hoping it will be unique but don't have a clue how I will do that. I do think things will get better and that more good things will come into my life...hopefully a good man too. ( I can have a birthday wish now since it has past midnight there, right??)
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Should I just keep the bar open for a day? I will be in and out but you guys know where the glasses are. I am excited all ready, just like a kid. Having my Dad's birthday so close to mine has always made us try to make each birthday extraordinary. I have to get up earlier tomorrow just to get the kids going. Just means I will be awake for more of the real day!! lol
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
