Do you some insecurities? Do you feel your not pretty enough? Do you feel your not sexy enough? Do you feel your not smart enough? Do you feel less than him? Do you feel because he is a lawyer that he is better than you? Do you feel that your life cannot continue without him? Does he have the keys to your happiness? If so, why?
I did feel less than him. Not because he was an attorney. My H always wanted to fix me. There was always a better way for me to do things. I was too skinny. I wasn't worldly (I got that until I traveled all over the world for work). Even after I traveled all over the world for work...I didn't experience the places I went enough. I said the wrong things. The way I handled things at work was all wrong. He would tell me I was too nice and too...whatever.
I believed that I did need him...because I couldn't handle things on my own. I started to believe that he did know better and that he was right. Like the text message that he wrote to me several days ago...he wanted better for me- I believed him. Why did I believe him? don't know. I am a pleaser by nature...always have been. I could't please him..I doubted myself. I obviously sometimes still seek his approval. So what is it inside of me that needs this validation? I am not really sure. Any thoughts?
